The Girl whos heart is being eaten

So i am gonna say that my name is Sara and this my story of a girls heart that is being eaten. I started TaeKwondo in 2001 so i have been doing TaeKwondo for 7 years and i love it.

I started in Germany and i had so much fun i mean a 6 year old with tons of friends and getting to do what she loved, i had tons of friends and i had tons of fun, i went 5 days a week every week for one hour and 30 minutes and i had tons of fun. I was so sure that nothing could go wrong untill my parents told me we were moving for a 9 year old i was devistaed so my last few weeks there i tried everything to get as far as possible and so i got my blue belt. I even thought of some good stuff like i will make new friends and i will continue were i left of.

When we arrived my mom was looking for a new TaeKwondo school and one year later my mom found one. Just that one year gave me enough time to forget everybody and everything.

Then once i started the new TaeKwondo school i was treated as an outsider and i didnt like it. One year later we moved again adn i lost all my friends again i never thought that my parents would hurt me twice in 2 years.

But they did!

Then i started another style of TaeKwondo so 4 years of learning something was for nothing i had become a blue belt and now i had to learn everything again and everything i learned was toatly different. So my dream was to become a black belt at 11 or 12 years old and if i had stayed in germany i would have been a black belt with all of my friends. So my dream was being ripped apart one step at a time.

In 2007 i found pictures and the website of the TaeKwonDo school and as soon as i saw pictures i started to cry, from then on i cryed for 1 month strait for hours at once. then i noticed that it was one of my old friends birthday so i wrote to him Happy Birthday which was a big mistake. So we started talking per email and we shared storys in pictures and i started having fun being able to talk to someone in such a long time.

For about one month we were talking to each other and i stared to get closer to him and once again i thought nothing could go wrong untill about 10 days ago. That was after i had sent him a picture of me he just stopped writing to me and my heart just fell i could feel it and i got really sad inside because once again i had gotten close to something/ someone and it was ripped away from me and i was hurt so bad, after i said i didnt want anybody or anything hurting me after all that i had been through. To Top all that me and my best friend for 3 years strait got in the biggest fight and we barly talk to eavh other.

Everytime i think of anything that happened in Germany i get so sad and i cry for hours strait and i can feel my heart being eaten by the Evil things by the evil things that happened to me. I only have one wish for everything to be alright and me to be able to live a good life without to much pain.

Even though i go to germany almost every year exept this year, each time i went and i tried to visit them it was eather to late and my trainer was just there or it was monday and my trainer was just there.

My heart is being eaten and i cant stop it!

You used to be mine, but in my stupidity, we end up there. I regret those times, but I had nothing to do for it. I just hope and wait for you to come back. But yet I saw you with her. Right away I loose it all, I never bother to wait for you, I taught myself to forget you though it kills me so hard. From the time I saw myself contented of not having you in my life, destiny played me so bad. You came in my way again, begging for my help. With tears behind my eyes I accept your hand waiting for me to hold. From the day I started to ease your pain I know how much I would regret after all. But yet I never mind, as long as I could help you in any way.

We spend time together. And I found myself so happy with you. Days had past I realized again how much you mean to me, deeper than before. I also saw you so contented, never having a blot of pain anymore. I just think everything is so fine and forever be fine.

Tomorrow then, I am so happy seeing you. Wearing those smile came from your very heart. Then shocked me for those very long hug, then whisper me these:

“ Thank you for the help, I know you still love me, and I appreciate that very much. I know that when I am happy you’ll be very happy too,. And you know what, she call me last night, she wants me to be with her again, I am so happy that I can’t wait for this morning to see her again. But I’m here asking for your permission if you will allow me to be happy forever”.

Breaking myself into pieces, I answered you “yes” ..you kissed me goodbye and walk away without seeing how much you kill me. Though that would be a forever wound.., I can take it even forever just to make you reach your forever happiness. I’ll just be here with my -Dying Hope-..

I am on my third year in high school that time… And all I remember is that,.. my classmate named gerikho is always teasing me, while he is with his friend named ed, who tease me also, and everytime they do that, i also do the same thing, but sometimes i just keep quiet because im not in my good mood to have fun with them.. But I am not the only one they tease but my friends also… And sometimes i caught gerikho staring at me and looking at me.. so sometimes when he do that,.. i just pretend that i dont know what he is doing, even though I know he knows that I know., And those sit

thr was a girl name anjali she was quite reserved nature shy type gal.she dont hav many frds she used to feel loney so she decided y not to make a chatting frd nd frm her dad’s phn she made a frd ronit.he was swt loving guy.daily they used to talk by text msgs.on her birthday for d first sumone wished her in night 12 nd it was ronit.she started developing feelings for him bt after few month ronit stoped talking wid him donno y????even she didn’t ask him.she only used to msg her nd waits for d reply bt she knows it wudnt cum.lyk dis a yr passed nd she developed a strong feeling for him.so she decided to go to his city for her further education so he can meet him.ronit used to reply her bt only once in a month or two month despite of dis rude behaviour she still lyks him on oct 1 for d first tym she had seen him she want to a frds party nd ronit teext him tht he is in d same place she met him just for 5 mins bt she was happy.she got may proposals frm guys as all used to think she is single bt she never said yes to nyone bcoz she truly loves him bt ronit doesnt.lyk dis 2 yrs passed.she had decided she wont talk wid him nd will try to forget him bt dis cant happen??she havnt text him for few month neither do ronit bocz he never does.in these tym she really need him bt he was nt wid him bcoz she was facing lots of prob in her family her dad got a heartatack nd mom got a cancer nd shw was all alone no relative.being d elder child in d family she had to luk after everythg nd she did it.bt god cant see everythg happy na so again he tried to change my lyf.she again sent him a msg in diwali nd luckly ronit had also re[plied her nd they started talkin she was very happy.nd finally they decided to go out nd tht was d luckiest day of her lyf she cn never forget tht day frm thn they daily used to talk in d phones till late night.nd one day come when ronit said her tht he loves her nd she was so happy tht u ppl cant imagine.bt she was knowing how god cn give her these happy moments.nd d prob started she started thinking does he really loves me???bcoz they nevere go out together bt she never used to say him nthg she was also not knowing why???may be bcoz she loves him.nd slowly slowly his calls get lesser bt still she doesnt loose hopeshe was a very short tempered gal bt still  she even didnt said him nythg.nd now also she is wid tht guy she is knowing ki he doesnt loves her bt she cant forget him.she wants to say lots of thgs to him ki how he cn play wid her feelings??if he doesnt loves her y he came again into her lyf??she was trying to forget him na….this is not d end nw i want to knw wat tht gal shd do?? wat cud be d end???

i think true love is writing the correct words