Childhood Memory
Bitter Sweet Childhood Memory Lane
I am already 22 years old and this story happened when I was still 13. An age where every thing seemed to be magical and worth remembering that’s why I cant hide the fact that even many years have gone by, too many rainy seasons and summers have passed, I can still remember every single detail about this sweet childhood memory that I have once had.
I grew up with no mom to caress me when my knee hurts and to mend my clothes when they went untidy. So basically, I am not a kid whose been ran-after by a nanny. Well, we have one but can’t afford to fix me and my other three siblings. So I am NOT an attractive kid just for the record! (=’;'=).
But it was so funny that my father who has this very dear friend even had the guts to match me with his friend’s son. Find out how we went through.
It was summer when I was busy playing with other street kids with these famous chinese garter under the scorching heat of the sun. Our town is situated in the rural areas – where Mall of Asia or Super markets are buried unknown to most of us kids – for the record again. Well, let’s get down to the main point.
Yes, during our busy hours of playing, a big truck stopped by beside our red rusty gate. Out of our curiosity, we went near those group of people unloading boxes and furnitures. Well, I was fascinated by the fact that somebody would gonna occupy that old ghostly house.
With my dusty shorts, loose t-shirt and sweaty face exposed to the summer’s heat, my heart jumped and leaped. It was the first time I felt like there’s something inside me that rumbles, my tummy aches -exaggerately–or maybe I havent taken any snacks.. But it was like I got nervous or somewhat became conscious of myself upon seeing this kid.
He is very pale and thin but it cant hide those beautiful and pair of big eyes with curly eyelashes. Opposite to how I looked like, he’s into his neat clothes, plainly and cleanly washed. He’s very fresh to look at and no marks of sun burns or any signs he’d been running under the sun. He didnt give any single look at the kids looking at them while his folks unload their things. He kept on looking down as if afraid to see his new world.
That was the first time I saw him.
Week by week, as days goes on progress, I noticed he didnt even go out from their house and didnt even bother to go out and play with kids at our age. Week by week, I soon very interested to see this kid. So after school, I almost run to reach the house, throw my things in our room, changed into my playing outfit (same clothes I wore yesterday -hahaha), grab by soccer ball or if not chinese garter and ran towards the street calling anybody who like to play. I enjoyed playing and simultaneously glancing at my new neighbor’s gate if by any chance, a male kid would come and join us play. But to my dismay – no one came in.
After almost a month, I learned that his name was Michael. It was through his father who uttered it while having a drink with my father. He is too gibberish but the name Michael-his eldest son passed my ears very clearly. I heard that he is too shy to play. My father said he could play with us since we are at the same age. I felt excited when my father said this to his friend.
To cut the story short, as months passes by, I visit their house whenever I have the chance giving excuses like borrowing a vcd, asking for a science book, comic books or anything that would be a reason for me to talk with him. At first, he is too shy to talk but as we became pals, he became more confident. We both played at his play stations and I even stayed late at night in their house. Everything went well until I felt that I am liking Michael. I found him sweet and very bubbly. He doesnt play with kids other than me nor talk with them. His father would even tease me and say that someday, Michael and I would marry. His papa, who called me tess, encouraged me to call him papa too. But somehow, I didnt.
A year later, our friendship grew fonder and we have known each other. I even became more conscious of myself, tried fixing mg tangled hair and putting face powder. We have things in common. Literally, their house is just a wall away from ours. So everytime, we used to see each other and give each the sweetest smile. We used to talk every night forgetting my undone assignments and went to bed with a smile on my face.
My most unforgettable moment with him happened when it was already the end of the school year. We’ve been sharing our stories one night at their doorstep when we touched each other’s hand. We looked at each other’s eyes and finally I was ashamed of it and just laughed at it. Before I said goodbye, I gave him a smack on his cheek that even the shadowy door could hide him blushing. My face turned red and just ran inside our home.
That was the last moment we have shared. Summer came, i spent it out of town with my family. I terribly missed him the whole summer. At last, summer was over and I got excited in knowing this but to my dismay, our family, due to bad circumstances, we have to stay and just commute going to school. I had a hard time honestly and my young heart had to move on and get used to it.
Two 3 years was amazingly over without my studies being interrupted by those memories, and I finally graduated high school. Within 3 years, I didnt even saw him nor heard anything about him. He was totally out of my mind.
My first two years of college was spent studying. I took Teacher Education in a state university near by. I joined a sorority and endured the pain of hazing. In fact, I tried joining every organizations in university up to being a campus writer. That helped a lot. My name got published in the campus paper and read by thousand of students.
Not knowing, someone admired my articles. It was Michael. I didnt know it for a while that we are at the same university. He’s from the far end and studies at the other department. I just saw him one day when I was doing my homework at the library. I was browsing a cosmo mag when suddenly, my eye hit a group of people who are very noisy. I tried to see who the hell these people who seemed not to care about the meaning of SILENCE. But instead of that, I saw that familiar pair of eyes which I adored few years ago. It was Michael and he changed a lot.
Michael who used to be pale and thin became a man who’s body can be compared as local version of Leonardo de Carpio. Duh, I maybe exaggerating things but he really became a big and sturdy guy..too far from that old Michael before.
Spending a few minutes staring at them catched his attention. Those pair of eyes suddenly focused on me. Our eyes locked and trying to recognize those old childhood innocent eyes that we have before. Suddenly, I felt like there’s a fire burning my cheeks. I looked away, and in just an instance, he started to walk towards me with big smile, I got nervous, my knees are like shaking and heart is beating so fast–i couldnt stand it but I managed to give a nervous smile.
It was just a short conversation. After five years of not seeing each other, we started from scratch and too shy to bring back those childhood. He seemed so strange to me. He said that I grew up so lovely and cute. I just laughed at it and blush. That may somehow true because for the past 2 years, I was courted with numerous good-looking guys. Those tangled hairs became naturally black and straight. I grew up a little bit but I remained petite. With few work out on how to wear a makeup, now I perfectly know how to put blush ons and lip gloss. I am not adorable but pretty enough for guys to have a second look at me and just add up the fame that I have for a sorority officer at the same time a campus writer.
Michael seemed to bring his cellphone up from his pocket when a bubbly girl, who’s a bit taller than me emerge from nowhere. I recognized her as one of the campus’nightigales who happen to bagged trophies in campus singing contests. Undeniably, she really is an icon too with good voice. Honestly, she’s not that beautiful. She’s sexier but she was jokingly been compared to Petrang Kabayo (horse-faced). She looked at me and say “hi”. As a sign of respect I did too. I cant remember the details but they just went after that.
After that encounter, we usually see each other at the campus but rarely had time to talk with each other. We used to exchange smiles, hello’s and hi’s and everytime we see each other he used to say that im pretty and cute.
I noticed that he’s always with the girl. I assumed it was her girlfriend -(though it took sometime for me to believe it)–but it was really his girl. I was so sad about it but that’s the fact. He’s committed.
I realized that the special admiration that I have towards him dont have any chance at all. I just need to deal with it. It hurst because he’d been my first love.
A month ago, I was introduced by my friends to Paul. He’s chinese-looking guy. He is actually cute and most girls in the class have a crush on him. It was a whirlwind, Paul and I became officialy on.
Everything have supposed to be perfect when one day, he came over me and said he wanted to court me and explained even that the girl she used to be with is her friend only. I saw the pain in his eyes when I told him that Im already committed and I dont want to hurt Paul for this. I just said yes to paul 2 weeks ago and it was very rude on my part to break his heart because he seemed to be very serious about us.
That was the end of it. He never talked to me after seeing me with Paul. I still saw him after that with that girl and they seemed to be closer. I am jealous but life’s like that. Im thought of breaking up with Paul after few weeks and give chance to Michael to court me and flare up those sweet childhood love we had. But it was too late.
I’ve learned from other students that horse-faced girl have been very lucky to have a handsome guy. A sharp needle suddenly pricked my heart because I was aware who that guy was-t’was Michael.
Paul and I are getting better. We have some common things to share. I felt guilty about it because most of the time, I kept on thinking about Michael and the regrets. I fell like Im cheating on Paul because at the back of my mind, Im wishing that Im with Michael.
Time flew so fast and three years have passed. We are all graduating students in college. Paul and I are still officially on. My parents knew him well and things are really getting well.
My heart froze and it feels like my old dreams was ended up when I learned from the father that Michael is going to get married. Her girlfriend is already pregnant and he is the one responsible for it. Fantasy and all that have been shattered and there’s no way to bring them back to whole again.
Just recently, me and my boyfriend are visiting an old friend when I saw Michael and his wife with their newly born baby. We just greet each other casually,like an old friend. My friend even teased me that his wife is even jealous of me when Michael said that I am his first kiss and first love. Now I am contented about it. Even if I wasnt the girl who completed his life and mother of his child..I am happy about it since I learned that though those memories are just puppy admiration, he did cherish them and I became part of his life no matter what.
Wheeew….that was a long story. Sometimes, I think about that childhood memory, I cant help myself but to smile.
A girl or woman should really learn how to catch a man and keep that man for the rest of her life instead of just thinking of this fallen love memory.
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12 Responses to “Childhood Memory”
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it was soOO cute..
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matet Reply:
oh, thanks… just sharing these memories makes me proud that I had once experience a puppy love and its really worth rmembering..share urs too…!
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dark angel Reply:
you know it was really great i love it>..b’coz each of us have our own childhood memories….and it worth to remember b’coz it part of us
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it’s very interesting story.
so cute:)
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love like that is something we have to cherish and think about once in a while with a smile.
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oh god so sweat ang somenice memories you had together you might not be able to be together but you can be friends and for someone to turn to x
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Very cute story
I am also still living with my puppy love and believe wherever he is , somewhere in the bottom of his heart I am still living in him,,,,wish i could meet him somehow
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………..ohhhh………..that was a great story of yours???are you really happy for them or you just hide your feelings to ease the pain??/ohhh..
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i cant put into words the emotions i feel right now
well i guess it’s much better if micheal and you end up together
hehehe
but it ‘s ok it only shows that you belong to another guy
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- it was a beautiful story, its just sad to say that u don’t even have a chance to bring back those childhood memories b4. specially u know that u both like each other. but i guess your both happy somehow….. nice story….
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its cute i have the sam experience as yours
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really touching yaaa
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