hes been the soundtrack of my summer
Hi im Kathleen, I was just 17 yrs old before when i get so broken hearted with my crush, which happens to be a good friend of my brother. My crush use to show me things which makes me think that he also likes me…I really have been expecting too much from him, that something might happen between us(like hes gonna court me). Ive waited for so long, but nothing happens. And that had me broken!And after that my world seemed had lost its color. And all I do is pray to God to let the pain go away or send someone whos gonna put happiness back in my heart…One sunday morning, as i was just fixing my self before going to the church, i saw my crush, and my heart starts beating fast again! and as i recall that i ask God for a sign that before the week ends, if im gonna see him, it means well had a chance that well be together…but still after that, i still doubt.!–more–After the going to the church, we had our lunch at a Chinese restaurant. As i had my entrance at the restaurant, this guy caught my attention as i noticed him staring at me and gaved me a smile. As we had our eye to eye contact i remember that he was the boyfriend(or shall i say soon to be husband) of the sister of my best friend way back high school. As i go on eating my meal, i still notice him looking at me. and that made me so conscious(haha). After a day or 2. I opened my friendster account, as i take a look on the ones who viewed me, i saw his name and with no hesitation i check his profile. Then i leaved a comment on him saying to send my regards to my best friend( as i knew that he was living in my bestfriends house because hes been live in with my best friends sister). After it, he send me a message saying that i looked so heart broken and he asked me why, so i shared the reason to him. And he gave me advices and I also gave him advices coz he also shared that hes not in good terms with his GF. And so we kept exchanging messages in friendster and in YM.After a while he became sweet to me, and it gives me a question in my mind that why is he like that to me, when in fact he had a girlfriend?…So i was so bothered about it, and so i asked him, and he said that they were no longer together. And Yes i was quite happy cause im starting to fall for him but I also doubt about what he said because im sure that its hard for them to separate because they had already one angel, a baby boy.Despite the doubt, i still dont stop my self falling for him nor ask my best friend about them, because i was afraid that my best friend will say their still together and it might shatter my heart again.So we continue exchanging messages at YM. We share lots of things, listen to the music together, color the drawings together, share stuffs about us and without noticing that weve been chatting till 5am! (i almost forgot to sleep on those time).He aslo surprises me with simple things. And I cant forget when he gave me a CD full of my favorite songs, one thing that really surprised me is he knew where i lived when in fact he didnt even have a chance to go to my house. So i asked him, and he said that he saw me while he was having a bike with his friends way back 4th yr high school, and i was starting to think…He knew me already before i met him in my best friends house. And Yes! he said that he already knew me before i met him, and when he saw me in the house he recognized me without me knowing it. So i blushed!until one day he confess that he loves me, but i didnt reply on it coz i doubt that their still together with his gf and they are just having a fight thats why he moved out and go back to their house. But even if i dont admit that i also too love him, it still shows that im also inlove with him, and i think he knows it.And one moment i cant forget about him is, one night (or shall i say dawn, it was 2 am) he go to my house just to see, as we go near to each other in the gate(the gate was locked so i was not able to let him in) we both became speechless. We just kept smiling to each other and i can really say that he was so nervous and so do i. After a while he goes home. Then we continue chatting again. And we forgot that its almost 5 am and the sun is rising.Everyday he never fails to send me messages and check my profile. And so our sweet days continue…but i never admit to him that i also love himnot until one day, he fails to be online at night and he didnt even texted me, or just a simple good night. So in the morning, i just cant help it, i miss him soo much!, so i txted him and he replied that no matter what he do or where he is, hes always thinking of me. And i texted back…but i didnt get any reply…At night, a girl called me at the phone, it was his girlfriend, asking if somethings going on between me and his boyfriend. On that time, things are already cleared in my mind, that their still together. To make things easy for him, i lied and said that nothing is happening between us and were just friends.and so all of it ended…..(but i know deep in my heart that he has loved me)after a month…he leave me a comment saying that he cant forget about me, the songs kept him reminding of me and lots of stuffs and he is sorry for what he has done. And that made me cry, but i still try my best to do the right thing for the sake of his baby. I made him realize that he shouldnt let his family down. and on that part we finally said our goodbyes…..and because of that it really shatters and tears my heart! its the worst feeling i ever felt!one day, i saw him online, and i saw his main pic was him and his GF wearing a wedding gown. So i congratulate him, and he said that was just their pictorials and their wedding is on next month…on that night he said that he really misses me and all the stuffs we use to do. On that night we put back the memories together like it was the last night of the 2 of us. on that time, I knew that he loved me…but the love we had is wrong. in the eyes of his child im the one who is the kontrabida. And i cant afford that his baby will hate him. So i stop being selfish, i pretend that its ok for me, that im doing fine without him, though it really hurts… He is my first true love. so i guess it wont be easy forgetting him…there is never a day that i dont think of him, and every song just makes me remind of him and every time i open my friendster account, im hoping im gonna see him on my whos viewed me list….until now, he still checks my profile….and seeing his pictures is really killing me… I MISS HIM SO BADLY!i guess ill take his advice he gave me when i was so broken hearted with the other guy before. and i guess he takes my advice too, that he should hold on and be strong for both of them…, hes been the soundtrack of my summer
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