i never said i love you until i met him

love is something very important to me…you don’t mess around with that word. i hate it how girls my age or around my age use it for everything. how they belive that every guy they date is the love of their life.

I’ve lived with the meaning of love all my life, right infront of me. I’ve learned to want that and only that not to settle for anything less. But then how do you know when to let go of what you thought was love or to keep trying? I always believed that at my age (15-19) it was impossible. That you could never find a guy commited to only you and no one else that he would never want anyone else but you. That by just the sight of you makes him happy.

When i first met him, he attracted me.yes. but it wasnt love at first sight. However, i wanted to know him. I first dated him for 2 and a half months but at the wrong time. He was changing and so was i. i just moved there and i was changing the way i thought and saw things, but i still kept my opinion of love.

That summer we got closer than ever and we became really great friends. i helped him through his relastionship, but with the thought of a friend. I shut away the little emotion in my heart. I went out with him by the beginning of the school year but broke up with him a few days later, because i thought everyone knew how it was going to end and i hate when people can predict what im going to do so i dated someone else. and so did he. until it hit me 2 months later that when my boyfriend made a mistake i knew i could have someone better someone who will love me and miss me. It was that night that it dawned to me.

He was going through a hard time so i tryed to help him until he told me that he cut his wrist because of something that happened to him. The three words i said next. i didnt regret one bit. i knew they were ment for him the minute i them and they were i love you.

Things took off from there. and we went through things that normal relationships would never go through. everyone told us that we fought like married couple, that even if they didnt know we were dating they looked at us once and smiled.

Im writing this story to say that not every love is love at first sight. that me and him are the complete opposites and that we don’t get along that well. but at the end of every day we tell each other we love each other. That not everyone is perfect and if they trully love you and only you! they will try their best to make you happy and listen to how you feel. That i may not marry him that he may leave me for someone else. But that i know that where ever i am on this world that he gave me true love. That everything is done for a reason. everyone you meet everyone you talk to influence your life and you influence them. And that you trully know if he or she loves you is that they’ll always try to have you in their lives that they can’t bare to want someone else. However, we cant read peoples mind so how do we know??

we feel it. when we see them. when their hand touches our skin. when they look into your eyes and tell you that they love you. that you will do anything for them. That you can’t live in a world without them….That how you know.