I think were still in love

It started out as a regular summer. I drove into Kentucky expecting nothing amazing or spactular to happen. well i then met him. with his amazing blue eyes and those arms that i still feel oh so safe in. well it was a summer romance, or it was at the time. he was my first kiss, although i never spoke a word of this to him. i felt foolish for i was thritteen when my first kiss happened. along with my first makeout. which he was as well. although my mother didnt like Jake too much though. she had even threatened to send me home early. she thought him to be to touchy and sort of disrepectful. which hurt me so much that my mom didnt approve of him because i had realized to me this started to be more than a summer romance. it blossemed into a relationship. and i loved every minute of it. but the sad part, i had to leave. and we broke up for neither of us were crazy about long distance relationships. i was crushed. but Jake and i made an effort to stay in contact and be friends. we talked on the phone at night and texted alot during the day while we were at school. then i went back in septemeber for a weekend and this was when i told him i loved him for the first time. he said he loved me too. he always had but he was scared to tell me because he meant it and he says he still does to this day. but im not so sure anymore. because now he has a girlfriend. [[not that either of us said we couldnt date other people. i never thought of dating anyone else but Jake.]] i dont want to keep him from his happiness. even though hes told me a few things about her and i must say i dont like what i hear. i just grin and bare it i guess. but it kills me to know hes with her. then the truth came. he cheated on me when we were going out over the summer. but he says its the worst mistake he has ever made in his entire life time. and that he loves me so much. he hates to see me hurt and it was a terrible mistake. im not sure if i can trust him anymore. im not sure if when he says hell always love me, if i can believe him. even though i still love him. i know i do because of everything that we went through together. im so scared if let him go. i feel like ill be losing a big part of me. and i cant help but wonder if he feels the same. like what would happen if we just stopped talking. if we stopped making the effort to stay as close as we are. uhgg i dont know if i should even trust him? or if i should just let him go? or what would be the best for him, because thats all i want. i want to know of his happiness. thats all thats important anymore. that hes happy.