my best friend… me and his ex…

everything started 2 years ago…nathan was with a girl named brit…she couldnt stand me because what i have and because i get along with people that know her too …she is very rude,kind of a beachy person..and one day nathan maneged to find out my cellphone number…so…from here started everything.we started to talk a lot..but after a time brit started to be gelous…and tried to separate us…she started to pick up on me…to give rude messages and to threat me..in one day,they got into a fight and they brooked up..after some time we got more closer and closer..until one night when we kissed…and after that we were together only when we where at some party…cause after that day none of us had the courage to talk about this…until one day when i meet Razvan..we start dating…but in one night when i was at a party without razvan but nathan was there too..at the end of the night he drove me home and we start kissing,and i felt very sorry because i allready was with someone…so i told him that i’m seeing somebody else..than was the last time we were togheter…but after that we allways talked and we met a lot of times and we became very good friends…when he got beck together with her(last year) i accepted the fact that he is with the girl that will never going to be kind, because i thought that she changed and she will be 100% for him….but she wasnt..she hated me more and more….they were allways fighting about me…and one day i found out that she was cheating on him with 3 guys….before this i heard a lot of rumors that she is cheating on him with others but i didn told him anything because i didnt know how…until one day when i found out about those 3 guys and i talked with him and told him about these 3 guys..they broked up…i was allways there for him,anytime he needed..even if sometimes we felt more than we were just friend…but those feelings we keeped it just for us..in the present he is my best friend,sometimes he tells me that i’m number one for him,and sometimes i have the impresion that he wants more from me…but he doesnt tryes anything cause he knows that razvan is everything for me and that i love him!I feel weird sometimes when i tell him about razvan cause i don’t know what are his real feelings for me…during those years brit done a lot of demages in my life…so i can’t stand her…i don’t want her to be part of my life anymore cause for me she doesnt exist!i could’nt be ok with the fact that a close friend of mine has something with her…and now the problem is that nathan was one night with her again(after almost one year in wich they didn’t talked…and after one year in wich he told a friend of mine that he was just a waist of time,i think that she is just playing on 2 fields)..and the thing is that i can’t stand this situation…i don’t wanna lose him..cause he is my best friend and i care very much for him,but i know that they wont be ok.cause he doesnt trust her and she will never change…and in the end it will all be the same like until now!maybe i should anderstand if he wants to be with her…but if he is my best friend and we’ve been trought some many what’s the point of losing our friendship for something that wont last…or for an adventure…..anyway whatever happens even
if he will be with her  i’ll allways be here for him…