my first love, failed love
I consider this story of mine as very painful..
My story happened two years ago..
During my sophomore years, I met this guy through the internet. I felt then that he liked me cause he kept on sending me emails everyday. And then later on, he asked my phone number and I gave it to him. Never did I imagined that as we go through communicating he was able to express his feeling to me. Because that was really my first time, I felt ashamed and afraid. After five months of our communication, he decided to visit me in my country. We met in person and he said he like me.. He became my first boyfriend and became the first also whom I’ve given the most important treasure a woman would consider-my virginity. Because I was not an experienced woman especially on handling such relationship and I was young then. I think he felt that I don;t like him because I never showed him my feelings because I was really shy to talk to him. I love him but i’m so hesitant to show my feelings to him.
After ten days of being together, he left for home. He sent me sms three times and I guess and decided to put an end to our communication, Because I felt that he is not coming back and maybe he was turned off because I was cold to him. But if he really loves me, then he must sacrificed also..
Three days after his leaving I felt like I lost half of my life. I want to send him email but I was trying to hold myself because of the fear that he might ignore me. I bear the pain. I’m always praying to God asking signs. Days became weeks, weeks became months, months became years and until now, I find it hard to fall in love with another wman. I am afraid I might fail again. Many guys are very interested in me but I just ignore them for the reason that God will give him back to me..My nights then were sleepless cause I’m always crying. I pretend to be happy in front of my friends but deep inside, I am bleeding. I am really affected. Frustrated. Hurt. Until now, I am graduating but still no bf. Cause what I want is him. I’m just not sure, i’m hoping, I don’t know if i hope for nothing. I don’t know when I can overcome this. The hrdest thing
simplegirl21_4u in Sad Love Stories
khammashco Replied on 08 Jul 2008 at 6:24 am #
hello.. I’m so sorry about that .. but listen to me … don’t think about him again … and when u see him .. don’t give him interest .. so he will be so angry .. and will try to get his love back (you) .. this is the way if you wanna give him back to your heart castle .. believe me .. and the best thing for u is : don’t think any more about him or any one else .. to be free .. and fun .. and enjoy your life there is alot of things you have to do it in this life .. coz .. god create man and women .. did not create him alone there is who is much better than him .. goodbye…
grace Replied on 09 Jul 2008 at 9:18 pm #
he’s not the right guy for u! cmon…..dont make your self fool!!
wesley Replied on 22 Jul 2008 at 9:24 am #
I’m sorry about that, I know how you feel, just try to put it behind you without thinking about him, if he really cared for you he would’ve sent you something or called by now.
Don’t waste your time, i know it might sound like I’m a douche, but trust me on this, the worst thing you can do is wait, and wonder what if…but all you need to do is try to be happy, and don’t put in a show infront of your friends, let them cheer you up and have a good time
Good luck, byee.
Mia Replied on 29 Jul 2008 at 4:45 am #
Don’t be sad….everything will be over..hope you can find another person that you like.