Still him..Still waiting..Try to learn
Karez was always a top student in their class since from her elementary years. She was always used to have everybodys attention because of her good looks, intelligence and good family background. Everybody thought how lucky she was. But little did they know shes broken inside. Even wanted of death for her to come.Back when she was young, she was always afraid of guys due to their differences in thinking. She always have had girlfriends and felt uncomfortable to be with guys. She rarely talked to guys. As she entered high school life, there she felt having a crush to a chinky eyed guy. To make it short, they fell in love but it took 5 months for him to get Karezs sweetest yes. But it only took 2 months for their relationship. Karez realized she wasnt ready yet for this stage in addition that her parents would not allow her having a boyfriend. They were still immature that they just even dated once with friends. They were still in the shy type stage. Karez found out that the guy cried to her best friend and felt really loved because of its tears but still decided not to pursue their relationship. That was summertime.When school days arrived, she felt the same again to that guy, as if she felt in love again to him. Not knowing the guy courted her unexpectedly she wanted to say yes but doubtful because she thought it would be just still the same as before so she just said to him to wait for her. Months passed but it seemed that the guy is not in love with her anymore. One afternoon Karez received a text message from unknown. She did not reply for she wasnt a text maniac. But the sender just texted her consistently. It was Mcken, a guy from a higher year. Days passed and they texted and texted but still she like the other guy and decided to make him jealous by letting him hear about Mcken but he was just ignoring her. Karez just did not know when did she fell for Mcken all she remembered was her day wasnt complete if she cannot receive a message from Mcken. Mcken courted her and still took him for almost five months to have her sweetest yes. They had rough relationship for first months but still both of them love each other and tried to work it out even in a long distance relationship. For Mcken had to study his college years in another place. They expressed their love thru text messages and phone calls and sometimes Mcken would visit her during holidays.The day came when they had a big fight and decided to break up officially. Karez just found herself a feeling of abyss of emptiness in her whole life for not having him anymore, she even wrote poems that filled one notebook that expressed herself, missing him so much, loving him more and more everyday and everything she felt for him.Karez was still not allowed to have a boyfriend, her parents and elder sister strongly objected about it that it might ruin her studies. And to be prepared for a medicine course. But for Mcken she lied just to be with him. She even preferred their sisters fight because of Mcken than to lose him, respectfully to her late grandfather, she did not attend her grandfathers wake just to be with him, she even lose some friendships with other guys just to please him, thats how she loved Mcken.The chinky eyed guy named Lin knew about their breakup and decided to court her again. Karez was shocked and amazed for Lin waited for her silently for three years. Lin promised her that he would love her more, respect her more and everything than Mcken could do. Karez knew Lin was true ever since but Karezs heart only belongs to Mcken. For her, what she felt for Lin before was just an infatuation. She even felt guilty when he just talked with Lin. For she love and respect Mcken so much that she would not and never betray him. He stopped Lin to court her for she had still high hopes to be together again with MckenShe lowered her pride and texted Mcken that her feelings are still the same for him. She texted all sweetest words that a guy wanted to hear from a girl but Mcken just seemed to be different. They just argued and he even said to her to forget about him. But for Karez leaving him is always a failure. Days had passed and they did not communicate.Karez changed a lot she was always depressed, pretending to be happy outside, even dropped out in the top 10 list of honors, always cried at night, devastated, even dared to be absent in classes and everything that shocked her loved ones why shes like that already. She cannot take it anymore so she just texted again Mcken after how many weeks. Mcken just said to forget about him.Karez cried all night and day that nobody can ease her pain. Her heart is broken into pieces that cannot be fixed anymore. Karez tried to be happy with her friends even going out of town and trying new adventures in life to forget Mcken but of those experiences, in her mind is still him that how great to be with him and experience all those things together.She is still waiting for him even how she received pains and always bleeding from him. She really loves him. Still him. Still waiting. Her love for him is true and immeasurable. Isnt it sweet? But still have to learn to move on. _December 5,2007_
troubled teen in Long Distance Stories
Lindsay Replied on 04 May 2008 at 10:15 am #
I already experienced that too,honestly until now im still waiting for my ex..but I realized that TRUE LOVE WAITS we need to pray for that person to be the ryt one for us and if it’s GOD’S will for you he will give you the desire of your heart just trust him.BUt if his not meant for you accept it and learn to move on because GOD will give you the right one and the best for you.GODBLESS
unknownsweet Replied on 07 May 2008 at 11:54 pm #
hi there. that’s also my problem=(
he said 2 forget hm..
but i always txt him!
its still him.. i’m waitInG
tadz Replied on 10 May 2008 at 3:23 pm #
forgetting the past is such a difficult thing to do..especially if you had l0ved the pers0n truely but then again we sh0uld n0t f0rget that there still an0ther life waiting for us…we sh0uld n0t instill into our mind that everything had c0me to an end who kn0ws that what we have left behind is just a beginning of beautiful things… Remember, life sh0uld be marched f0rward! Just keep on hurting urself til it numbs..haha! Remember relief c0me fr0m one h0ur to the next.
jaizzelle Replied on 17 May 2008 at 11:35 pm #
what a beautiful story…. can i post it on my blog…? so my friends can read it…. i just want to share this beautiful story…:p
admin Replied on 18 May 2008 at 1:34 am #
yes you can ,, we love to read your love story
sand man Replied on 19 May 2008 at 3:59 pm #
ok good
farhana afroz Replied on 20 May 2008 at 8:36 pm #
hello karez,i really apreciate your courage and feelings for your love.i just want to say you are not the only person who is waiting for someone special.so ,please please have faith and believe in that “true love never dies”.
gillespie Replied on 27 May 2008 at 9:05 pm #
i do agree. forgetting the past is not an easy thing to do. i even cry for it eventhough i’m a guy.well, some guys are like that too. when i found someone new to replace the previous one, i felt guilty because it’s like i’m using her instead of loving her. but i do love her, at the same time i used her.
sweetoo Replied on 03 Jun 2008 at 1:10 am #
a thought is worthy only if it is from both sides. dont cry for someone who never cares about u. u deserve the best, select the partner seeing his character.
leah grace nasak Replied on 10 Jun 2008 at 6:15 am #
but whew…
don’t know…
:(
can i post it on my blog?.. just want others to read it.. thnx.
Triona Leo Replied on 17 Jun 2008 at 8:36 am #
i am going through a similar phase. The problem for me is knowing when to pursue what you want and when to let nature take its course. I don’t want to push too hard yet i don’t want to not try enough.
It’s nice to know other people feel the same pain as i do.
Time Replied on 25 Jun 2008 at 9:50 pm #
its a great story but how can she fall in love with mcken by only txting over someone she sees everyday at school?…i know it’s hard to forget your first love but i would have taken the chinky eye asian dude Lin’s proposal when he came back to ask her the second time…Lin never did anything wrong…it wasn’t Lin’s fault she broke up with him the first time…:(…i feel sorry for Lin more than karez…i guess the moral of this story is…..”u reject the guy that loves u most over someone else….u will fall….and you deserve it”…..of course karez may seem like the good person here but Lin is really the good guy….karez tried to make Lin jealous and Lin ignored her and im sure Lin was hurt pretty bad…if the women i love tries to make me jealous i wouldn’t be jealous….i’d be sad…the women u love going around telling everyone “i got a new guy that likes me, he is soooooooo cute, he txt me everyday!”…of course who wouldn’t be sad…Lin waited until karez and mcken broke up just so he can ask for another chance….now that sounds like something i would do…Lin even WAITED SILENTLY FOR THREE YEARS, NOW THAT’S WHAT I CALL LOVE!!….if Lin was the bad guy im sure he would have tried to break them up somehow but he didn’t…mcken is the antagonist in this story…he came outta no where and messes everything up…what i think is….when mcken came down for the holiday he had sex with karez and that was IT!!! HE DOESN’T WANT HER NO MORE!! they had a big fight and so he just tells her to forget about him…WTF!!….IF YOU LOVE HER AT LEAST TELL HER TO WAIT FOR U!!!!….picture yourself in karez’s position…..wouldn’t u regret ever letting Lin go in the first place??….picture yourself in Lin’s position…..how would u feel if the girl u love loved someone else and u waited 3 long years just for her and still she says no….very very sad indeed
ryan Replied on 07 Jul 2008 at 12:53 am #
ump.. nothing to share about!
hehe.. juz e-mail me, looking 4 a partner!
ryan Replied on 07 Jul 2008 at 12:55 am #
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akanksha Replied on 09 Jul 2008 at 10:44 am #
he wud never come coz same happened wid me a lil bit diff..so move on i know its easy to say coz thts wat my frds says me bt i cant…
ALynn Replied on 12 Jul 2008 at 10:34 pm #
its hard in situations like this,
forgetting about someone is the most toughest thing ive been through so far,
i didnt understand.. they said they loved me right?
love just doesnt go away like that,
honestly, i just thought to be happy because it happened,
try not to ruin yourself because its over
best of luck <3
dee moana Replied on 14 Jul 2008 at 8:36 am #
Nawwwwwwww that’s sooooo sweet
well I haven’t fallen in love yeht but
I might let love fall on me and may
god attend my relationship for he
will bring happiness and laughter.
A big good luck to those in love and
remember if you really love them you
will let them go.
ba byyeeee ……
myrna Replied on 30 Jul 2008 at 8:45 am #
I really don’t know what to say, all I know is that I can relate to what you are going through. Been there, done that, felt that and, after eight years there is not a day that I don’t think of him. It hurts because I still love him, but I’d rather be alone than be with someone who does not love me. Well good luck to you.