One sad love story

Alright. To start things off, i’m 14 years old and i’m a dude. The girl i was in love with was in the same class as me. Let’s call her T. Before the day’s of me likeing T, her and i were good friends. She’d always help me with my love life at the time with another girl. She was real friendly. One day, that girl i liked before and i got into an argument and we’ve pretty much went our seperate ways. T was there for me and brought me back to my feet. i slowly started having feelings for her. She was everything i wanted in a girl. We started talking more and more in class and on MSN. Our chatlog’s exceed 9,000kb. I had a feeling she liked me back so one day, i had enough courage to tell her, that i’m starting to have feelings for her. She responded by saying that she liked me back. Everything was going fine, we’d end our days with iLove you, Good night and such. It was perfect. I would say, we were only a few days away from being a couple. We’d also talk on the phone for ages. Then, that day came. My Best friend, Lets call him S, started likeing T, And would do whatever means nessesary, to get inbetween me and T. S would also annoy T and be real touchy with T. One time, during art class, T and i were sitting at a table talking when S came over, and sat on the table BETWEEN us. It was extreamly akward. Maybe i should of told S that i liked T and he shold back off, but i didn’t, idunno why. Maybe it was because he’s my best friend. Anyways, we slowly stopped talking as much and we’d occasionally get into an argument because i usually assume things, which i now know was extreamly stupid. The day came when she stopped saying iLove you and that’s when i knew something was up. To figure out if she still had feelings for me, i told her this. I think we’re slowly like fadeing away and not as close as we used to be. What do you think? And she said that yeah, i guess it’s okay because you’re feeling the same.. But really, i still Loved her. One day, on MSN, T told me this, you say that you don’t love me as much as you used to, why don’t you just get over me? That was a heartbreaker, it truely was. Now that left me thinking, of whether i should still like this person. It got even worse, she also later on changed her personal message to, ” I Love ____.” And ____ was not me. I was in complete shock. i started assuming so many things, and jumping to conclusions. She later on told me that that was an inside joke but i didn’t get the humour in it. Today, we’re friends, Close friends to be exact. I’m still pissed off at myself that i didn’t just ask her to be my girlfriend. Maybe things would be alright. S still dosen’t know i liked T. T now likes another guy. I still like her. I’m currently thinking about whether i shold just get over her or not. schools over in about 1 month. We’re going to differant highSchools. I really don’t know what to do. I mean, She’s amazing. if you’d ever meet her, you guys would probably be friends. She’s friends with everyone. It’s something about her that makes so many people want to be around her.

I’ve liked this girl, M, for around 2 and a half years now, though I have never been able to tell her. I am a 17 year old male and she is the same age. We used to be quite good friends for the first year I liked her, we caught the same bus to school and would talk quite a lot during bus trips. We started to become quite open with each other, if we had problems we were able to go to each other and talk to each other about it. I loved having her there for me when I needed it, she was always so caring. I had always wanted to tell her how I truly felt about her, but I never thought she liked me in that way back. I was scared that things may become awkward between us if I told her, and I valued our friendship so much that I did not want to lose it. During the first year of liking her I started becoming attracted to another girl I didn’t even know, I started spending lunchtimes with her and she figured out that I liked her. We never started going out, as this girl told me she did not like me, I was never to fussed over her anyway. During this time M started going out with a boy, it did not last long however. I don’t think she has gone out with anyone since, from around 2 years ago. I still liked M a lot, and this feeling grew. We were still good friends. One day after school I came and sat down on the bus beside her as I usually would. She held onto my arm and asked me questions like how I was doing. I had just had PE and was quite sweaty, I told her she didn’t have to hold my arm because it was all sweaty. But she did anyway. I don’t know if anyone else would interpret this action in the way I did. I interpreted that she held on to me even though it may have been slightly unpleasant holding on to my sweaty arm, she was there for me even if it didn’t suit her. Maybe that’s stupid, I don’t know. But I do know that my feelings towards her grew significantly by this action. After a while she stopped catching the bus and would drive herself to school. I hated that she was gone, I missed our conversations so much. We barely ever saw each other as we only had one class together and we have different friend groups. Our friendship started to die away over last year, to the point where greeting each other if we walked passed one another was unlikely. I suppose I could have made more effort to talk to her. I reminded her a few times that I was always there for her if she needed anything or someone to listen to her. At times I questioned myself whether I should like her, at times I even tried to discard my feelings for her. I was unsuccessful, liking her felt so right, she felt like the perfect person to be with. This year I decided to ask her out for coffee, I asked her casually – so she didn’t think it was a date. She agreed to and sounded quite keen on it. The school ball was coming up and I had always wanted to go with her to it, always I wanted it to be her I went with. I asked her, I was so nervous that my mouth dried out. I had expected her to say yes, but she replied saying she had already asked another person. I felt like I had been ripped in two, I could not believe it. I had always dreamed of going with her. Going out to coffee with her was great, we got on well and caught up on a lot of things as we hadn’t had a decent conversation in a long time. She lived just over the hill and had walked there so I walked her back home. The next day I called her and asked if she wanted to catch up again soon, she replied saying she would rather go in a group. I didn’t really think she sounded overly keen on doing it. I made more effort on going up and talking to her at school, a few times we would have alright conversations. Then one time I tried going up to her and making conversation but she kind of just walked off as she was answering. It hurt that she didn’t really want to talk to me, it hurt a lot. For the next 2 weeks I was deciding whether I should tell her I like her or not. I knew she would say that we should just stay friends, but I really wanted her to know. She needed to know how amazing I thought she was. Finally I pulled up the courage to tell her. She looked really happy when I told her, I told her I thought she was amazing and I cared about her a lot. But she said what I knew she would say, that we should stay friends. She also said she wasn’t ready for a relationship. At first I wasn’t all that depressed about it, I was glad I had actually told her. But here I am on the day after when I told her and it has really sunken in. I’ve liked this girl for so long and I do not want to stay friends, as friends in our situation we barely see each other. Today at school was so hard, when I saw her I knew that she knows how I feel about her, but nothing was different. She means the absolute world to me and I would do anything to make her smile in a split second. I love her. Every time I see her face everything feels perfect and I feel happy. I love her so much and it kills me that she doesn’t feel that back. I understand she isn’t ready and I would never try pressure her to be.
I wish I knew whether she would want to become more than friends in the future.

well to start with my name is nuwan and i am basically from sri lanka… i did my schooling in dubai and than i went over to india for my higher studies how did all this happen when i was in dubai doing my 11 and 12.. basicaly to start with my family is something very important. i stayed with my father over ther.. i had two sister one was elder and smaller and they both stay away from me with my mom ..now its been almost 8 years i am not aware wher they are even.. and even in this tragic situation i fell in love with a girl who was studying in my school at that time.. first of all she had a crush on me and than typical friendship way where we met 2 to 3 times outside.. was over the phone for longer time… and it was continued for 2 months like that when one day she proposed me over the phone and i did agreed to it..coz i too was waiting desperately to love someone or to flirt with.. i was handsome enough to get any girl of my kind. and to tell about her she was simple wearing specs almost looks pretty.. and from ther onwards our love story started and one day it happened that she called me over to her house and i thought that this was the chance for me to do something but what i expected never happens in life… i went to her house thinking that i will have a great time but i was wrong .. and it was the first time ever we got a chance to be alone and at that time she came near me and sat and started saying about her family..well it was too senti.. she lived with her mother and elder sister, her father was expired and when she was saying all this she started crying and me couldnt bear her tears and from that time onwards i thought that i wont play with her i will love her seriously and will marry her one day even though we both are from different nationalities but as we say everything is fare in love and war.. so i started to love her seriously and got time to see her everyday , i would be going to her house everyday and will be talking chating and making love to her.. everything was fine with us, rarely we fight over that also coz of girls talking to me and i used to buy gifts for her .. do all kinds of romantic things which would make her happy , and even at time i used to speak to her father in dreams.that made me more serious with her, i knew that for her family to expect me was something which is not possible but i didnt give up, anyway coming back to my family it was already scattered and i didnt had any interest in family matters even though i missed my sisters, my mother but her love kept me always strong and happy. so i dint mind, and than at that time our exams too got over and we had to find a way to continue our higher studies, at that time i got a chance to go to Canada coz my father had enough money to spend for me but here everything went in the other way she started crying more and told that since she have to leave to india , i should forget her coz ther is no way we can be together but i consoled her saying that i will try to get admission in your college over india by saying something to my dad and as i planned it all worked out.. i got the same admission in the college wher she got and at that time i didnt care about my mother even. even though i got a chance to find them over there or somewher coz for us to study in abroad is something which nobody would reject it, but i was such a fool that i left that chance and got all the documents ready to go to india, and somehow she was too happy about it so before me leaving she left to india and i was waiting or say dying to see her. somehow my dad gave me enough money to be ther and study.. and than the time came wher i left to india, it was my first time and somehow some stuff from college came to pick me up at the airport and i went to the college, the college wher i never thought that this college would change my life, this college would bring tears to my eyes instead of all the happiness i have dream off. in the mean time i got all the documents filled up and was on the way to the class wher i saw my princess was sitting well i was out of the world,, i was so happy that whatever we planned work out and from ther onwards we could be together for three more years, and as usual i n college ragging started for us since we were first years,and at that time most of the class mates came to know that i have come for her only but by hearing this she wasnt happy she told me not to say to anyone but as usual i told everyone . in the mean time ragging was going on and they ragged us to the core but with her every guy was flirting.. and for me too see that was unbearable i thought if i had a knife in my hand i cud cut everyones throat but i kept quiet and so on days went on and me started suffering more coz of all the seniors it was like me wearing shoes always started to wear bathroom slippers to the college.. had a very long hair but cundt keep it coz they told to cut it..no sleep at nite all the time ragging or saying us to do something, i was tired of it and i used to cry over the phone while speaking to her and most of the time my money went on coz of calling her through the phone booth but at times we got chance to hang out , go for movie that was only one movie i saw with her and so it was ok what to do have to sacrifice certain things in life… maybe till that time i have spend around 15000 for her only over ther but i dint thought of asking her anything..so as the days were goin on she got more exposed to guys started going to the cafeteria , usually we guys were not allowed and she made many friends but always i wil be sitting in class waiting for her but she wont come in time and at that time one senior from some other department started getting close to her a lot and that mad e me worried and i told her stay away from them but she would never listen and started to fight always and move on with them more… ther is a saying rite girls are like birds, once they get wings they dont turn and see even there relations.. so as usual she got exposed that environment and was on the top, but me only in the class or suffering all the brutalities of the seniors, and at that time ther were friends for me too but what to i only used to talk to her or look at her or eat coz of her..everything was her for me.. and one day what happen was that since al this fuss was goin on .. she called me and told that her mom came to know about our relation and told to choose one of us and as usual girls always go for there family and she told that we shud close this relations but i made her understand and told that not to worry everythign will be fine and at last she got agreed to it…and from that time onwards she started behaving differently .. she wont have time to cal me .and most of the time she will bunk the classes hangin out with friends especially guys but me what to do i kept quiet and one day i came to know that she went with two guys and a girl to see a film .. and i got so wild that that day i was standing near the hostel and called her but she wouldnt come and i took a blade and tear my skin of my hand and tld that if she wont come down i will do something and at last she came and i asked whats goin on, what was my f… problem by hearing this i slapped her but she too gave in return and the words she told me that day was the last word i would ever like to listen in this world.. it was like she never loved me .. it was just for time pass and she never told me to come over here .. she dont like me at all she hates me.. and kept on saying things and i as if my heart explode into thousand pieces kept on keeping silent,,didnt know what to tell her.. for the girl whom i loved soo much, for whom i left my family, my education everything just left me in this lonely path.. and after she left and i was sitting on the stairs till nite didnt know what to do wher to go.. just kept on silent… anyway i never thought i will end in this way. from that time onwards i started doin all kinds of crap things.. started to smoke,, had my first drink.. it was not a drink, i dran k a bottle and kept singing all the sad songs with my friends,,, i was lost .. only tears in my eyes ..even that i culdnt stop.. i kept on saying its ok buddy it happens..kept on wiping the tears but it was difficult for me to forget the girl of my life.. its always says that its the guy who cheats the girls or break up with them but here i was a guy who had a small dream .. a dream where i wanted love and to be loved, a dream which was never fulfilled at all,, later on from that time she stop speaking to me and i would rarely go to class and that time i had more problems i didnt my visa fees and they charged a penalty for it and i lost contacts with my dad,, somthign went wrong with him and i dint know what to..everything was going wrong.. no money ..if i didnt pay visa fees they would send me back,, my studies would be spoiled.. no father ..nobody to help me even at that time i still used to think of her.. she knew my problems but never came to help , at that time all my friends came to know about it and they were like helping me out to get rid of it.. and i started drinking more and more and whenver i go to college she would be with that guy catching his hands and walking .. spending most of the time with him and me just kept looking and tears were rolling out of my eyes.. someway that time friends were there to keep me goin on with all this sorrows and i started to make more friends.. trying to avoid her will keep me happy but always i used to see her coz she was in my class and than most of the guys told me that she was with him outside hanging around.. all kinds of stuffs.. what to do now.. i dint know what to do/./ anyway it was necesary for me to complete my degree and find a way to pay my visa fees and somehow i managed to do that.. and so on it went at times she used to look at me and just tears will be ther in her eyes but cudnt help it and me too thought talking to her even though she took everythign away from me. my trust,, my love .. my life but what to do i was totally blind over her love.. somehow time went on and she started making friendship with me but even that was incomplete coz some way or the other old thoughts would come to her mind or my mind..and she used to ask sorry for what she had done.. but even though at that time she wouldnt allow me to be in peace, she has told everyone over ther that i am drug addict.. she used to come near me and flirt around with him .. showing me that she ishappy and i am not.. she didnt leave me at all..everyday she used to do something or the other to me..and what to do i kept quiet.. i thought one day she would understand but she didnt.. and everyday i will be cutting my hands with blade .. drinking drinking and drinking.. she spoiled my life.. even i was a person who got so many medals in school time for my curricular activities.. i was the captain of my volleyball team.. went to different countries..participate in javelin.. but all i lost when i came over here and started doing all kinds of rubbish things coz of her.. anyway i knew i have to go on with it now and even in mean time ther were many girls who were in love with me… but what to do i gave my heart to one person and i didnt feel like doing it again.. later on somehow my dad called up again actually he went over to sri lanka thats why he coundt call up… and i got a chance to go to dubai for the first year holidays..and even at ther i used to see her.. but she used to look at me in an avengful way.. she used to hate me for somethin that i never knew what it was…. this was my first part of love story.. the next part i will let u know later..whatever it is love has ruined my life.. a girl whom i worshiped just left me alone .. thats life..even though writing so much hurts me again an again but i would like everyone to know that dont ever love a person so much than you..coz when u loose him or her it will hurt you but what to do whatever we thinks it never happens.. when something happens like this its better to cry and forget things… well this was just the starting for me.. the next one i wil let u know.. i hope after hearing that nobody would dare to love even..

It’s something that i will never forget for the rest of my life. It’s a medley in my head that plays when i wake and a lullaby that rocks me to sleep at night. It’s a love that can be never replaced, a love that only you can give me, it’s the only love that i want. But it’s too late, too late for anything to bring it back. Your’re too far for me to reach, too far for me to call you back. Your’e now only a memory that i fight to remember everyday. Crying will do me no good for you have broken my heart and tissues will not fix it. I pray for your happiness, happiness that i gave you for only a short time. Please remember me, please remember all the times that we shared. Maybe one day i’ll be fine……Maybe.