My love my story

I was 13 and lived in the house I live in now in Loughton, Essex when I first got used to MSN, and then I got into a chatroom what my mum found for me which seemed safe enough to go on.Within a few weeks, I found a few friends on there who I knew I could trust, there was Yasmin from Hackney, JJ from around Leicester, and Nathan from Shropshire on it.I hardly spoke to Nathan though, anyway - I added Yasmin and JJ on MSN and got talking to them, she said she knew Nathanvia the chatroom, and she added Nathan to the conversation…..I got talking to him, and wanted to see what JJ and Yasmin saw in them, as they all said how cute and sexy he was.I saw him on webcam for the first time, and instantly knew what they meant. He was just so cute and I knew I wouldnt have a chance with him, because everyone at school picked on me for how I looked and I wasnt that confident in myself…Over the next few months, my feelings for him got worse. And what didnt really make anything better was the fact that Yasmin had feelings for him too, and in the end, they started going out.. I tried to be happy for Yasmin. Even though deep down my heart was breaking. They never saw each other though, as the distance in between their homes..A few weeks after they were going out, Nathan started to have feelings for someone else, I kept noticing in his personal message I love Olympia!. Not only was this a bit more heartbreak for me, but the same for Yasmin. They split up.I was there for both Yasmin, and Nathan. Nathan only ended it with Yasminnot only because he had feelings for someone else, but the fact that Yasmin didntseem that interested in him anymore.Within a few days after, the fact Nathan was single now made me more determined to get to know him better.And doing this, made my feelings for him worse. I spoke to him a lot more than I did before, and eventually I was became obsessed with him. I was speaking to Yasmin one day, and she told me that she thought Nathan had feelings for me..I thought No way. Who would love me.But being told this, I became very curious if it was true. On MSN another day, I came online, and his name popped up the moment I signed in, he was asking for a mudfight haha. And flirting. I cant remember exactly what he was saying, but it was something I felt very awkward to respond to.. that night, my friend Leanne got speaking to him, she asked him on a scale of 1-10 what would I be as a girlfriend? He said 8/9. I began to believe that he really did have feelings for me, he always said that I had a nice smile whenever he saw me on webcam. The next day, we were on webcam to eachother again, his friend Roddan was there. Nathan said to me hed be back in a minute he just needs to do something, and Roddan then got speaking to me, he said that Nathan wants to ask me out but is too scared to. I was stunned. So that night I got speaking to Nathan again, and both of us eventually admitted our feelings for eachother. We both fancied eachother!He had to go after that, and he wasnt online for about 2 weeks after that night. But when he did come online, our personal messages were Jessie & Nathan and Nathan & Jessie in emoticon hearts..Once again, we were on webcam to each other. His smile always made me smile and go warm and mushy inside. It seemed all I was thinking about was Nathan and Id always get butterflies whenever I thought about him and me together.After about an hour of complete silence and just staring at eachother. I plucked up the courageto ask him a few questions. bearing in mind what Roddan had told meI asked him If I was to ask you out, Nathan.. what would you say?I was absolutely over the moon and happy when he said YES! =DAnd knowing his answer before I even asked the question, I asked him out. And he said yes!We both were so happy. And I never thought anyone would love me, I never thought anyone would evenlook at me and find me attractive.The one problem remaining now was the distance in between our homes. But my parents did take me upto see him for my birthday in May. The first time seeing him was very awkward, we didnt a word to eachother until all the adults were out of the room, and then when they were we hugged eachother tight.The next day of being in Shropshire, me and him took a walk around where he lived. We sat down on the bench, talking about how pointless a roundabout was haha. And then, I looked into his eyes, and kissed his soft lips. The feeling was amazing. Id never felt it before, and was never interested in finding love really, but, the moment I met him I knew I wanted him more than ever.I had to go home that day, and the heartbreaking feeling of having to let him go after Id felt so loved up by him, was just unbearable.The next few months went on, and I went to see him again in July for a weekend. We stayed up all night talking to eachother, hugging, and kissing.But.. this time was different. I kissed him for longer, and then it just turned into a french kiss. The feeling of this, was just, unexplainable. It was amazing. d always found it gross when I saw other people do it, but.. I dont know. I find it upsetting cos I always miss him and want him back. The next day.. I had to leave him again. Which again was unbearable.. heartbreaking.But, months went on this time, and I saw him in August for his mum and step-dads wedding. Where he was Joes his step dad best man. Me and my family missed the wedding, but we went to the after party at the pub nearby. Me and Nathan sat out in the garden looking after my brother and sisters. They went in for a while for a bottle of coke. And then Nathan leant in and kissed me. french kiss, hehe. Just that one feeling of being loved by him, and wanted. Was just so lovely. I never thought Id ever experience it.After the weekend in Shropshire, Nathan came back with us to my house for 2 weeks. Waking upto him being downstairs was just the best feeling ever.Gradually our relationship got more and more serious, and we were just so in love we were thinking about no one else but eachother.Letting him go after him being there for 2 weeks was very difficult, because Id gotten used to him being there in the mornings..After that time of seeing eachother, I wanted to always be with him. I couldnt cope being without him all the time, I cried myself to sleep every night from then on. I saw him again in October though for a week at his house. I loved having his company.And then again in December, for a week, again at his house. We babysat most nights with his 2 baby sisters, Shona and Jo-Beth. And then, again.. I had to leave him. Crying and crying as usual, began to be all I ever done.I didnt see him again for 4 months after that, I saw in April, and he stayed at mine for 2 weeks again.I loved him being there, I loved him with all my heart, I never thought Id have somebody to love like I love him, from then on I began to listen to mushy love songs and listened to the lyrics and imagined them as me and Nathan

so.. im kinda new in this kind of stuff. a friend of mine says that it can help you get over something when you write your frustrations and problems out. im really having a hard time moving on. so here goes:its been almost a month since i broke up with my boyfriend. he went back to his ex. well, that makes me the ex, now. when we started the relationship, i was the one who is hesitant because our relationship was going to a be long distance relationship. but he kept on saying that we can work it out and that i shouldnt give up on him and that were a team. during that time, most of my friends doesnt approve of me having a relationship with him.first, they havent met him yet and second, well , hes too good-looking. see, he lives in a province and i live in the city. his province is 4 to 6 hours away from me. prior to the relationship, we became friends. he confides to me whenever he has problems with his step mom and some other stuff. but as time went on, i just suddenly found out that he has a girlfriend when we met. whats unfortunate in my part was i was starting to like him.so i asked him why he didnt tell me.the only way for us to communicate was thru email, instant messaging and cellphone. he then sent me a message saying that he broke up with her since hes so fed up with all the things that this girl is doing to him. as a friend and since he usually confides to me about almost everything, we talked about it. he told me that he already gave this girl 4 chances but kept on breaking her promises. and he also apologized for not telling me that he has a girlfriend. i told him things that a friend should say in situations like this but of course i also added that at the end of the day it will always be his decision. so he decided to break up with her and he still continued communicating with me and our friendship went on till we found out that we liked each other. we were hesitant if we should pursue going to the next stage of the relationship since both of us are far away. then we smade a deal to spend time together. i was the one who visited him in their province since his situation is more complicated than mine and since i have more time than him. he paid for my stay and almost everything else.it was one of the best 3-days-2-nights vacation i had. we went to his favorite places, met his parents his dad and my dad are of the same brotherhood and his dad was apparently, my uncles friend when they were in high school..talk about a small world!, met his cousins, his step mom, some of his classmates and more. i met almost all significant people in his life. they were even teasing me to him. they were also trying to hook us up. all i did was just smile and laugh. some even thought that we were dating.on my second day, we decided to make it official. so he became my boyfriend. then, as we were spending time together as a couple in their province, i realized having him as a boyfriend was hard. he was quite popular. people would stare especially girls at us. it was as if the entire town knows him. i was intrigued and asked him about this. he says that it has its own advantages and disadvantages. the advantages are special treatments and the good stuff. disadvantages are , according to him, they treat him as a prize,always checking who the lucky girl is, where he goes, who hes with and what he does. but he remained humble and nice to everyone. i just told him not to pretend and act as just like a regular guy. i really didnt see the material stuff in him, i knew hes attractive but not at that level. it didnt change anything. i still see him as the goofy guy that i fell in love with.and then, i had to return to the city. i was soooo sad when that day came. i felt like staying and transfer school there ahaha! so i can be with him and to get to know his family well. when i returned, there was no day that we stopped texting, calling and talking with each other. i always go home early so i can IM him and see him on webcam. he kept telling me why i always give him reasons to fall in love with me everyday, reminding me that i have a boyfriend and to not fool around.but little did i know that his ex was bugging him and trying to get back with him. he mentioned it to me but he said that there is no chance that hell be getting back with her. the hes so fed up with her attitude.but i realized that even though theres so much anger in his voice, i felt that he really loved her and that he still have feelings for her.i asked him what if the anger disappears? would you still be saying the same things that youre saying now?he said of course! im happy that im with you.she doesnt have any chance with me. i was kinda relieved by what he told me.he calls me sweets which i was having a hard time getting used to using. i havent been in a REAL relationship before. this was kinda new to me but im getting the hang of it.everyday was bliss to me, but i was missing him as well.as days went by, we went through regular stuff a couple would have. arguments, teasing, goofing around, doing silly stuff and talking about almost everything. but then, his messages and his voice was starting to get cold. he sometimes doesnt message me anymore, always busy and going to parties.so i decided to visit him during the weekend. and get back before class, monday. he picked me up and checked in on the same hotel. but this time, he doesnt want his family to know im there. and doesnt want to go out since people might see us and create rumors about him. i didnt really care, at first, because i was with him. but something bothered me. he was so anxious to take me to the hotel. his driving was different and he kept on looking around the crowd of people. i didnt mention it to him. i just asked him are you ok? is there anything you want to tell me? he just goes yeah, im good. what about you?in the car, i asked him again are you really ok? he just went i just cant wait to get to the hotel.i stayed there overnight. didnt mention about the stuff that i noticed. we just talked about other stuff.the next day i went back. and it felt different. it was as if hes ashamed of me with him. i just shrugged that feeling off.as days went on, his messages felt really different. he was being distant and cold. he kept on saying that he has a lot of things in his mind. i told him that he can always tell me anything.then one day, i received a message from him saying i miss you so much, baby.then my response was i didnt know you also call me that. would you also wanna use sweety or dear? then he goes was just checking what your reaction will bethen i cant help it anymore. i had to investigate. i found out that he calls his ex baby and that every time he reasons out that he was only at his friends house, he was really with her.one day, i sent him a random message saying hey you!. then i got a reply that says hey…this is his wifey.goosebumps came rushing on my entire body, my hands were cold and my heart was pumping so fast.then i sent another reply was that message for me? thats impossible! the next reply was from him saying sorry, that was her who sent you the message. they were attending the sunday mass together so i had to wait until he went back home. then we talked.he told me everything. hes been thinking of getting back with her, that his feelings are still there and that hes been spending time with her since their in the same campus. i told him i wont give you up without a fight. i will never allow her hurting you again. id prefer giving you up and seeing you with another girl except her. we talked, argued.in the end, all he said was im sorry. i didnt mean to hurt you. i didnt want these things to happen. i know you already hate me now. i guess your friends are right. maybe im just some guyall i said was if thats the case, then i might as well give you up. remember, i told you that i will never give up on us, unless you will. i dont hate you. i cant blame you if you still love her. im just disappointed and frustrated by you. and youre wrong about my friends saying that youre just some guy. coz if you were, i wont fall for youhe goes i didnt know why i did those things to you. youve been amazing to me. im really sorrythen i said its ok.i understand. youre just not in love with me.as the song of Heather Headley goes i wish i wasnt in love with you so you couldnt hurt me…i wish i could go back to the day before we met and skip my regrets

I deemed it fit to tell the world how love failed me…But where do I begin? From the day I met Eve? How I left her for school? Or to the end of my supposed happiness? Where do I really begin?Eve? How can I ever forget all that happened?At least I have my shattered heart to show for it. Eve? Even her name was enough warning for me, if only Id looked back at the Eve of reality, maybe Id not have been here narrating this story. They say every disappointment is a blessing….But this one was nightmare.To me, Eve was the prettiest thing God ever created. Every inch of her flesh looked smooth like the well laid street in the resort of Asokoro {Abuja, Nigeria}…She looked like natures perfect human model and the very minute I set eyes on her, I was never to be the same again. Eve! Was I to see that there was more to life than beauty?Well, let me start from the very beginning….Please dont get pissed!I met Eve in the year 2000 at secondary school where I enrolled. She was a beauteous angel. Whenever I glanced her direction, our eyes met. God! She was always looking at me. Everyone noticed that…even teachers. We would spend hours just staring at each other. I knew she liked me but I couldnt walk up to her. I was shy!But one day, I went out to pee while lecture was going on, when I returned, I met a folded piece of paper on my desk, puzzled I picked it up and unfolded it, it turned out to be a note which read Bigjoe someone is loving you and you know who. Of cause I knew who! I looked at her and she smiled. oh what a smile!Well, that was how it all began. It will be an understatement if I say we loved each other…for ours was love at its peak!Then I gained admission into the University. And despite the distance, she came to visit me….it was all good!But then, last year {October 3rd to be precise}, my school went on a 3day mid-semester break. So I decided to travel home. It was already dark when I got there and like Id always done, I dropped my bag and rushed to her place, I met her absent …so I decided to check on my {best} friend Harrison, when I got there, I noticed his door was slightly closed not locked, so I didnt bother to knock…..besides I wanted to surprise him with my presence… I just pushed open the door and there behold my Eve! On Harrisons bed……in Harrisons arms! They were both locked up in a kiss. God! I couldnt believe my eyes. It was like what I saw in a movie. I really dont know the appropriate word to describe my feeling as I looked down at my best friend and my girl on bed. I felt bad! Only God can tell how I managed to control my anger. With tears, I turned and left them….I left Love!I returned home that night, with a heavy and broken heart. I lay like a ball on the rug, hugging myself I cried…I was miserable….I was wretched. My eyes were open but before me, everything was dark…I couldnt see! I wished I had gone truly blinded, I wished life could evaporate out of me so I had rest from that misery…well, I left Agbor for school the very nest day…otherwise, well, maybe I would have done something very stupid!Now, can you imagine a girl I opened all my heart to, a girl I have spent seven long years with, a girl I invested so much on- both emotionally, financially and otherwise, stabbing me from behind? Eve in bed with Harrison? Oh God! I wish you could see my tears now, I wish you could see what a mess my life is turning into….I cant read, I cant think, I cant even sleep….i am equal to a drug addict now, walking the street like a wind driven piece of cloth, staring vacantly into peoples faces as if I cant see them… and I really dont! I am on drugs but the drug is my lost love and the mixture is made of her kiss and heart beat which were once my daily bread.But right about now, I am nursing the thought of vengeance and already, some friends had given me some ideas…please somebody should advise me before I do something really really bad!email: elu_joe@yahoo.commobile: +234 803 4844 390,

I have been with my girl for 3 yrs and a half our both 1st love. This relationship begins during our college life and we started to date at the age of 18 when we both knew that we love each other despite many obstacles we have gone through¦..She is a caring, lovely girl and she is my princess I would say. Many guys will easily fall and attracted to her because she is cute and got the sweet smile look but she rejected them without giving them a little hope. I felt secured as I trusted her but I dint take things for granted because she is my dream girl that I still cant believe to be with and I dont want to end it with. She brightens my life with her sweet smile everyday especially when I was down just like the ultimate cure for my sadness. I feel so blessed when she comes to my life because she is so perfect to me no matter what people said about her. I trusted her and my self.She is very emotional kind of girl and may cry easily. Each time when she was down or sad she will come to me and I will try my best to comfort her. I cant stand the pain watching her sad. She tends to be too reliable on me but I dont mind because I m willing to help her anytime when she needs me. She is at the top priority on my list so I sacrificed something I should be doing just to listen to her, well it get bored sometimes because the problem seems to be repeating but I still be there to guide her again and again. I would not say that all the time what I told her was correct but I tried my best to think and analyze the problem and gave her the best solutions. I m glad because each time she felt relieved after listens to me and she never forgets to thank me and followed by œI love you.!–more–All the while we have sweet, lovely and happy moment together including the sad one. We been through many things together and did many things we both did the 1st time. I still remember our 1st kiss, it was so funny that moment because it was our 1st time having a French kiss. We both feel so excited about it. That was the time when I noticed the lips can be so soft. The feeling was great so we both end up in the car at the ˜Carrefour car park for an hour just to try kissing each other but each time never last for 2 seconds and followed by a laugh after each kiss. The moment was so sweet that it will be in my heart forever. I never ever doubt her love for me because I can feel it truly from my heart. She did many sweet things for me and so did I.I remembered last time when we were having a semester break I went to a place far away from her to seek for a temporary job because the pays was good. In my mind that time was to earn money and spend on her. I dont mind spending all the money I earned on her as long as she is happy but she usually wont allowed me to do so because she want me to keep the money for myself after all my hard work. Before the night I left, we have dinner together. The feeling was so weird that night because we will not be seeing each other for at least a month and I cannot imagine the time she is not with me. Before she went home she present me with a gift which makes my tears roll down once in a blue moon¦.shame on me I know. Guess what? It was a box full of my favorite foods, candies, snacks and a few pieces of note she wrote. That moment I was so happy but sad at the same time. It was so hard to tell. For me it was better than a BMW because she put her care and loves into the gift which money cannot buy. Live was miserable there without her. Every day and every night I will think of her and usually gave her a phone call after my shift. I just want to know she is fine. Sometimes I purposely said some sweet things to make her cry. Yeah I know I m naughty but that was what actually I m thinking that time. After been there for a few months, one day she surprised me when she came over to see me alone despite so far away. I cannot believe it really, that was the happiest moment since I work there. That time I was like living in heaven.For the past 3 years our relationship was so good. We did many things together. We ride on the bicycle at the reserves park for the whole day, we been to the island and walks on the beach holding each other hand almost 3 hours without tired, we snorkel with sharks tiny one, we watch fireworks together, we been to ice skatingwe never fall together though, we never missed the cinema once or maybe more in a week and dinner after that, been to many place we both 1st time visited. We spent our time getting frightened and laugh out loud in the cinema. She is afraid to watch those horror movies but because of I like it she did accompany me all the time. So each time when those horror scenes appear I will use my hand to cover her ears I know she will feels better that way. She did that for herself too and at the same time she grabs my arm. Sometimes I will cover her eyes too but yeah eventually she will push my hand away from her eyes because she wanted to watch it. We celebrated each other birthday, valentines, Christmas, New Year and our anniversary. Although this seems to be routine live but I dont mind this going forever. She once told me that she doesnt mind either as long as she is with me all the while. She told me that she hope we can still hold hands walking together until old like grandfather and grandmother.About 2 months ago she went to UK to obtain degree qualifications which will takes about 3 months to complete. The last 3 months of her education life I would say. At first she thought she might as well wait for me to go together the next year even her parents agreed but I told her that it is very hard to continue her study once you stopped for a while especially when she found a job. At last she made up her mind and went there with a few of her friends. She felt very hard to leave me and her family. I bought her a ˜cute pig stuffed toys to accompany her and ask her to hug it when she sleeps so that I will be there to protect you. Yes, I know it sounds so childish but I just want to tell her that.During the day of her flight I brought many of our friends to the airport to wish her farewell. We spent few hours there chit-chatting about many things. She seems so happy and she said that œI think that I wont cry when I leave you later. Of course I will not believe it. Yes, I m right she cried just before she board the plane and we hug each other. I told her that not to worry I will be waiting for you to come back and we can have our sweet time once again. So she left¦.I feel so sad but I will be strong especially my friends keep on making fun of me out of her.After a long journey she has finally arrived UK and I felt glad when she seem to be settled down. The only way we communicated was through the web cam. For the past 1 month we chat about everything including her breakfast, where she went that day, jokes and all the silly things. She kept telling me she miss me and love me all the while and sometimes she cried when she saw me through the web cam. I again try my best to comfort her although I cant give her my hug when she needed most. I felt so sorry and sometime it makes my tears run down too. I read her blog all the while in order to know how she felt. She told me that she bought a pair of Nike shoes for me and I was so happy that time.Due to distance problem and time difference, our conversation is getting less and lesser. We tend to have little to talks about other then how are you today? Taken your meal? She was busy with her work too and I was sad actually but in my mind I kept telling myself that its not forever. Sometimes I encountered problems that I wish I could share with her but she just too busy. So I took the shortcut by just I asking her this question œdo you loves me? just to make myself comfortable that someone is still there for you, be tough and endured it. Yes I got the answer that I want right away each time. It was just a way to comfort myself when she was not around. Who dont miss their loves one especially been together for so long. There was once I got emotionally break down due to the stress I was having that day. That moment I cannot feel love from her but at last she did comfort me and I truly can feel it because her eyes were red with shinny tears. She asks me to take care myself and she is coming back soon. I said sorry because I m not supposed to make her worry. She might be facing problems far worse then me being alone. Everything seems to be fine after that.One day she told me that she gets to know a girl who treat her very well and care for her. That moment I m glad to hear that because I dont want her to be lonely. I thought she finally found a good friend to chat with when I m not there for her. She told me that they have a great outing together and have some comfortable chat during their visits to Manchester United Stadium. She show me the pictures they took during the trip and I m happy for her.Then things started to change after that, my usual question is not answered right away even though I did not ask this question everyday just like once a week. She tend to ask me back œwhy do you ask this questions again and again? I told her that no reason for that. I just want to listen from you. Then she replied œOk, I love you. I dont mind to say this to her every day if she wants me to..4 days ago she told me that she felt that our relationship has changed. I felt the same too but I think it was normal as we leave apart now but I believed that when she comes home the next month everything will be sorted out and we will have our relationship back like last time. She said something like why I dont trust her love by keep on asking her do you love me. I told her not because I dont trust her but I just want to listen. Why she mind doing this simple request for me? Then she said that every time when she online she has the responsibility to message me, just like homework. Why she said like that? I just want her to let me know she is online because I am usually doing my work and I hardly noticed when someone is online. I waited for her name to pops up on my chat window everyday. I just hope that she will greet me once she saw me. I definitely will do the same too.After that she started to tell me something that hurts me. She said that she no longer want to share her sad things with me as she said she can handle herself now. I dont understand why she said that. I told her that couples should be honest and share the feeling together. I asked her that does that mean she dont need me to care for her anymore. She said something like yes and I started to have this bad feeling. Then I ask her why she needs me as her boyfriend since you want to do things alone. She just keeps on saying that she dont know what she want now. I asked her whether she wanted to break up with me? She then asked me back whether we can choose to not break up 1st? she was afraid that she might regret later¦That time my mood has gone worse and my mind cannot think properly anymore because I cant accept that we are close to a point of breaking up as we never even mentioned about this topic before¦I said something that I still regret now by telling her that if she want to go I m willing to let her go which I dont! even until now. She felt sad and cried.At last we broke up. An hour later I tried to give her a direct phone call and asked her whether she got anything to talks to me¦she said no. That hurts me again, and I put down the phone right after that. A few minutes later I called her again and this time I told myself that I m going to talk properly with her and get things sorted out. I asked her whether she still loves me. She then told me that now she is not able to say œI love you to me anymore¦.my heart started falling apart. I asked why, why after 3 years we been through you choose to give up on me. She said her love to me is not there anymore. At last she told me that she fall for the girl who cares for her all the while only 3 weeks. I was like¦what? She is a girl! How these can happen? She just tell me that she dont know why but she is happy with her now and prefer her more than me. I tried to convince her by telling her that the relationship she was in is not going to work. I tried my best to recall the sweet moments we been through and ask her not to give up on me so easily. We make this happen and we build this relationship together. I failed to convince her after 2 days. Later I found that she no longer hugs the ˜pig likes she usually did and the ˜pig was being abandoned.Then she started to tell me that not only because of the girl we break up but the truth was our relationships have changed since a year ago. She said she no longer love me like last time and said that our relationship is getting bored. I asked her to give me another chance to make things up. But she didnt¦she just keep on telling me that she is sorry and tell me that she is not worth for me to treat her that good and she is a bad girl. She asks me to concentrate on my coming exam paper and even asked my friend to take care of me. So at last I m forced to let her go else I will drive her further away from me. I wish I can be one of her friend there to talks with her because she wont listen to me right now and I cant do anything. She is too far from me now. So I sent her my last regards;œHi, since you are really uncomfortable to be with me anymore then I will let you go. I dont know whether you really made a good decision but since it was made do what ever you had in your mind now¦.if one day that you have come to your sense and you feel like giving me a call feel free to do so¦..for now concentrate on what you want to do and take care yourself you know you are clumsy sometimes__best regard__ and thats it. End of my 1st love story which is not like fairy tales, living happily ever after¦In my mind is that she is really confused, maybe when she need me most I m not there for her and because the one who took her heart is a girl and she never aware of that and accidentally fall for her. It is not possible for a guy to do that because she will turn them down hardly all the time. I m so regret to let her go alone¦our both 1st love story have come to an end after 3 years and a half.She is never a bad girl even after she did this to me and I still love her very much. I understand her loneliness and sadness when she is there all alone. I read her blog that she always mentioned that she miss me and ask me please dont leave her alone next time as she will be lost easily this is just 1 month ago.I cant believe that my last hug was during the time she left for UK. She is coming back home the next month¦..I still cherish this relationship because I find that she is still worth for my forgiveness¦..but will she come back to me?submitted by : miserable HOPE,