The Girl whos heart is being eaten

So i am gonna say that my name is Sara and this my story of a girls heart that is being eaten. I started TaeKwondo in 2001 so i have been doing TaeKwondo for 7 years and i love it.

I started in Germany and i had so much fun i mean a 6 year old with tons of friends and getting to do what she loved, i had tons of friends and i had tons of fun, i went 5 days a week every week for one hour and 30 minutes and i had tons of fun. I was so sure that nothing could go wrong untill my parents told me we were moving for a 9 year old i was devistaed so my last few weeks there i tried everything to get as far as possible and so i got my blue belt. I even thought of some good stuff like i will make new friends and i will continue were i left of.

When we arrived my mom was looking for a new TaeKwondo school and one year later my mom found one. Just that one year gave me enough time to forget everybody and everything.

Then once i started the new TaeKwondo school i was treated as an outsider and i didnt like it. One year later we moved again adn i lost all my friends again i never thought that my parents would hurt me twice in 2 years.

But they did!

Then i started another style of TaeKwondo so 4 years of learning something was for nothing i had become a blue belt and now i had to learn everything again and everything i learned was toatly different. So my dream was to become a black belt at 11 or 12 years old and if i had stayed in germany i would have been a black belt with all of my friends. So my dream was being ripped apart one step at a time.

In 2007 i found pictures and the website of the TaeKwonDo school and as soon as i saw pictures i started to cry, from then on i cryed for 1 month strait for hours at once. then i noticed that it was one of my old friends birthday so i wrote to him Happy Birthday which was a big mistake. So we started talking per email and we shared storys in pictures and i started having fun being able to talk to someone in such a long time.

For about one month we were talking to each other and i stared to get closer to him and once again i thought nothing could go wrong untill about 10 days ago. That was after i had sent him a picture of me he just stopped writing to me and my heart just fell i could feel it and i got really sad inside because once again i had gotten close to something/ someone and it was ripped away from me and i was hurt so bad, after i said i didnt want anybody or anything hurting me after all that i had been through. To Top all that me and my best friend for 3 years strait got in the biggest fight and we barly talk to eavh other.

Everytime i think of anything that happened in Germany i get so sad and i cry for hours strait and i can feel my heart being eaten by the Evil things by the evil things that happened to me. I only have one wish for everything to be alright and me to be able to live a good life without to much pain.

Even though i go to germany almost every year exept this year, each time i went and i tried to visit them it was eather to late and my trainer was just there or it was monday and my trainer was just there.

My heart is being eaten and i cant stop it!