The ongoing drama

I am sure this is a similar situation for many, but it hurts nonetheless.

I am completley and utterly infatuated with one of my close guy friends. We have been close for a year. During this time we had a ‘thing’, but it didn’t go anywhere.

This friend, however, has alot of issues. He is on anti-depressants and has been for two years. He takes illicit drugs regularly and drinks to forget. When he drinks, he does stupid things. He kisses boys and does other things with them.

He has a girlfriend who loves him, but knows nothing about him. He has cheated