Where Do I Go From Here?
this is a true story - I remember coming home that night and sitting on my bed from my basketball game. I sat there for the longest time then bursting into tears. I was breaking down. The worst ever. I remember throwing things all over my room. But then I turned and looked in the mirror at the face he couldn’t love. The face that he couldn’t find room in his heart to care for. I stood up and threw my brand new basketball trophy at my mirror.
The mirror shattered and I was screaming at the top of my lungs and crying at the same time. I looked at my bloody hands that had been cut up by the mirror. My hands were also shaking out of anger. All at once I jumped up and ran to the bathroom and puked from crying so hard (ew i know). I curled up in a ball on my bed and sobbed. I wasn’t pretty enough, not smart enough, not athletic enough, not GOOD enough for him. I didn’t fit into his All-American dream…no I didn’t. My friend was the one he had his eyes on. The next week another one of my friends walked up to me and told me he was going out with my other friend. I was literally devasted. All the hard work I had done to get him to a least like me a little was…burning up in flames. I came home with tears blurring my vision. As I was walking to my house down my driveway I had flashbacks of all the fun times that I had with him. And I bet he forgot all the memories I will NEVER forget. I liked him for 5 months. Believe it or not 5 months was all I needed to know everything about him. That night in bed I cried myself to sleep with the memories breaking my heart. That’s when a questions filled my head. Why did I let him do this to me? Why did I still long for him to be with me? Why do I still think all day about him? I found my answer in my dream that night. The answer is…because true love never dies. And he was my first true love. Now I sit here typing this story thinking…I do still love him but from a distance. I had to learn the hardest thing in the world…how to let go and move on.
lone_star52
“I don’t miss him…I miss who I thought he was.”
Dedicated to:
Jeffrey- This is for you…I hope now you know how much you meant to me.
lone_star52 in Sad Love Stories
Courtney Replied on 16 Apr 2008 at 4:44 pm #
hey i no how u feel this has happen to me two times. I am serious. I hate guys who do this it makes me mad idk wat we are goin to do they are all the same it does matter how it starts out it always ends the same
Kassie Replied on 17 Apr 2008 at 7:52 am #
I know how you felt when this must have happened..i dont know this for sure but you must have felt very alone….and yes the hardest thing is to just let go and move on…i have troble doing that. but it all takes time…and from this and everything else you will learn from it. i hope you are doing good…
twinkle Replied on 17 Apr 2008 at 10:05 am #
o my god its very centi, i actually got a tear drop in my eyes reading this so i understand how difficult was it 4 u to cum out from this situation.
Natasha Replied on 18 Apr 2008 at 7:03 am #
i’m sorry to here that gal. the very same thing happened to me.line by line but with faith i got on my GOOD GOD I got over it.if you think no one loves you Gog loves you andwill never forsake you.kip well
Anne Replied on 29 Apr 2008 at 9:53 pm #
heya… i know how u feel.. and guess what … u sound exactly like me…. its been exactly 5 months now tht ive actually love the gy i was dating… i dated him for 2 months… and thn we broke up….. well he brokeup with me… and its been 3 months since our break up… and its not only happened once….. thn i started liking this other guy… a friend….. who actually helped me to move on.. but wow… whne i actually start liking him in seroius terms… he’s bout to see some other girl…. im totally hear broken.. and i know how difficult it is to move on ….. from the last 5 months there has nt been a single day…and i still think he was my true love.. .but not woth my love…….. this ohter friend…. when he showed me his feeling i jus told him tht i still like like my ex…. and now wen i like him…. i loos him too..
its very difficult to move on…. well thts life….
its never a peice of cake.. never!!! =[
deena Replied on 01 May 2008 at 5:45 pm #
i knw hw yew feel cuz dah same happend to meh.
Im stil yung and knw i shuldnt be worrying bout thiz type of thing bt i cant reli help it.I fell in love a year ago and still think why im not gud enuf for him and why he chose hurr over meh.The best thing to do is move on. I did and Im happy with a boy that i love. I dnt love him as much as i still love the other boy bt i knw that hez all i have. And probably all i ever can get. When i waz getting over the guy all i wanted waz to be alone bt i culdnt cuz mah friendz and family wanted meh to forget him so they took meh out alot and made meh have fun. Thiz did help meh take mah mind off him bt i never will reli forget him. Mah frendz think im stupid for loving this boi for so long bt i reli cant help it. Yew cant help hu yew fall in love wif bt yew can fall in love more then once. The love myt nt be az strong bt itz still love. Lifez too short to be worrying about stupid thingz like guyz so live life to dah fullest. Dont worry about him and yew gotta alwaez remembah that if he treated yew reli bad den he will get wahtz cuming for him. Karma will get him (lol). Revenge may be sweet, but watching him fall is so much beter.
pardeep from india Replied on 05 May 2008 at 11:01 am #
i get tears in my eyes while reading , i love a girl who dont like me due to one misunderstanding , but she is still the queen of my dreams , move on is a thing for heartless people. i dedicated my life to my love . like in india there is a famous love story of heer-ranja, for further info mail me your feelings
taylor Replied on 15 May 2008 at 7:37 am #
im going though the samething. we have been together five months now hes going out with my ex-friend and hurts to see him with her but ill get over hopefully. i called him last night he told me he still loves me and misses me he wants to get back with me and leave her but how do i know thats ture. the best thing i can say is try to forget him hes not worth crying over and though it may feel like you cant find anyone better you can.